First time ever experiencing a performance which required me to wake up at 2 in the MORNING! Experience beb.
Monday is busking for TAA. All the proceeds goes to the fund. thanks again to ALL who came down. Really. I had to rush down to work at the last hour because hezam decided he don't want to turn up. Geee. Kesian ayuni. While I was on the way bumped into one of the ex boyf. Later in the night( like just now ) he called me. We talked about life. How unsuccesfull I was in getting a significant other. I told him about mirza. He simply replied
"change your appearance luh"
I know this shouldn't affect me badly, but it did. I broke down and immediately I cook up an excuse saying I had to call my friend just so I can hang up. That sentence, obviously stated that I'm ugly. Make that fugly. Maybe that's why.
Maybe that's why I can't seem to join in the convo with the girls. Because I don't know what to say to them. What advice to give. I can only be happy with them when they told stories about happy life where someone picked them up. They went out together. FYI. I've never NEVER been on a date before. Not even to watch a movie together and have dinner. needless to say, im hurt. Im jealous of everyone.
Syaza said I must be happy being busy everyday with work, Rdp, busking, performances.
Yes i'm happy. But there's something more a girl like me seek. Which overrides all the other loves from friends. something more...
