Let's go back to Monday. Monday morning to be precise. Firstly, sorry to ALL my friends if what I did was contradictory to what I say.
After work that Sunday night, I met mirza. At around 12.30am. I gave him his birthday present.
I know I told you guys that I won't be giving him because he's not worth the hard work I put in for him.
But I felt bad for keeping something which was intended for him. I bought the shirt while thinking of him, meaning for him. I wrote the 19 things in the hope that he'll realise how much I feel for him. So we sat at the void deck.
He flipped the pages of the 19 things and smiled. He said he was going to read before he sleep. Then he unwrapped the stuff and smiled again and he said something. It made me cry.
He pinched my cheeks, wiped my tears and told me not to cry.
He hugged me before he go and I slept all night thinking of him.
Yesterday he said. "I'm not ready to love anyone yet"
It hit me hard. Ima would say."Ouch! You just snipped off my left nipple" But I kept quiet and took it as it is. I'm sorry friends. I think he's right. I always assumed the wrong things. I assumed he wanted me. I assumed alot of things which caused disastrous result.
I fought with ayu and caused g and syiqah to be sore because I assumed. Im sorry. I promise you girls that you will always be the best in my heart. I love you. Remember our dream? to grow all together. We will =)
