I was selfish. I only thought of myself and never spare a moment to feel what he is going through. I do things at the spur of the moment. I decided to end it because I thought he was only trying to mess with me. He was testing my patience and I felt that this patience has it's limits. I tried to ignore him but a voice deep within told me that I can't.

Now he can walk again and he didn't tell me earlier. But when asked how it happened he replied that his motivation was my smile. When he's down, he thought of the smile. When he's happy, he still thought of the smile. Whatever he did, the smile was the thing that motivated him.

I felt guilty. I'm selfish and I don't think he deserves me. In fact he deserve someone better. But I don't want him to go and neither do I want to forget him.

dear you, i miss you.