Dad is sick. When he reached home this morning, he went straight to bed, not eating the breakfast mom bought for him. I heard him moaning from the living room. The thing is readers, my dad never moaned in pain before. Not that I know of. But, today was the first and it was really disheartening. My brain was aloof. I wondered how he was. Is he okay and what not. I did called home during break and mom said that he's still the same. See? How could I immerse myself at work knowing that my dad is sick and MOANING in pain?!
I know having fever is a minor thing. But you all should know how horrible + terrible it feels to be sick. && i rushed straight home after work and now he's starting to disgorge what he had just eaten. I was like WTF?! I never see him throw up before. After helping him sort of clean himself up, I sat quietly at the living room. I kinda had tears in my eyes. It hurts to see him like dat. Even if we had our bad times where we couldn't see eye to eye at things, he's still my dad. My biological father.
Hmms, guess im like getting matured ehs? hahas! Getting devoted over family thingies. Being with that NS man for 2 years 5 months now had played apart too in this new grown-up Sammie. Subconciously, the NS man had taught me to value what I have. He taught me many things that adds up to Sammie who's going to gain self-actualization in years to come.
I thank you NS man for being with me for all this while.
I thank you for changing me from a rebellious kid to a grown-up lady
I thank you for showing me the meaning of love
I thank you for teaching me the value of family
I thank you for being patient when i get angry over NOTHING
I thank you for everything NS man....
-Love,
Sammie
