dear blog,

you had always been there for me

everyday, everyweek, and everytime I need you

and now.. I swear I need you more than ever.

you know how vulnerable i am right, blog?

And I hate that I tell you. I wish I could be strong.

Not to cry, and not to even care what people have to say

But I'm not. Im just a silly old fucking bodoh.

You see blog,

It's not possible for us to have a relationship

when there's no trust. It's not possible.

and all this while, I thought we had

Didn't I mention I am

a fucking bodoh. Told you so.

The thing is, he is what I've always wanted.

And what I depended on. I need him. Really.

But then blog, I had to do fucking things

that made him lose his trust on me. And there..

Guess I deserve it ehs. Karma had come round to do its thing

And there, I got what I deserve for hurting him before.

So there, I should thank you for hearing me out

I love you blog.

I have no appetite to do anything now. Not even to go to work. But I have to. Yah, I have to. Wadever. Nothing I can do to make things right. I'll just make it worse. That's it. I'll ponder on it no more. And you....

My heart won't..